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  • I read a blog this morning about the importance of journaling – so here I am. I’m not sure how much I’ve written since we’ve moved to New York – maybe nothing. A wave of intensity just rushed over my body as I wrote that last line. It was almost as if the hair stood up on my back (not that I have much hair on my back). I’m not sure exactly what that physical response was, but I’m 90% sure that it’s ...

  • [cont’d] It was 4365 days since our first date. Many things had changed and many things were different. First, and most importantly, I was sitting accross the table from a woman that I wanted to be with in the exact same way that I wanted to be with her on our first date – that desire had not increase, it had not decreased, it was litterally the exact same. 4365 days later we were sipping wine instead of drinking beer. And we were at ...

  • It’s been somewhat surprising to me that as I’ve sat down over the last week to write publicly for the first time ever, the subject matter that seems to be at the front of my brain is around relationships – and specifically my relationship with Ashley. I was in the kitchen thinking about my post for the day and thought that perhaps I needed to write a post that’s something in the vein of “My Relationship Isn’t ...

  • If you caught my last post, you heard me talk about my pursuit to be more accepting of perfection in my life, which I ponder as the primary ingredient in experiencing joy. On the flip side of that same coin is incompatibility [noun] – the condition of two things being so different in nature as to be incapable of coexisting. The irony is that even though incompatible situations and incompatible relationships come with negative emotions for y...

  • The sun shines through the shades, creating beautiful slashes across my bedroom wall. The kids are home from school – sick but still having fun, running around the living room, making noise. I’m amazed at how much energy the kids have when they’re sick. When I’ve got a bug, I don’t feel like getting up to get something from the fridge, but they can’t sit still even though they’re not well. I’ve been focused on my energy lately – I’m g...

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Blog / 18.12.2018

The sun shines through the shades, creating beautiful slashes across my bedroom wall. The kids are home from school - sick but still having fun, running around the living room, making noise. I’m amazed at how much energy the kids have when they’re sick. When I’ve got a bug, I don’t feel like getting up to get something from the fridge, but they can’t sit still even though they’re not well. I’ve been focused on my energy lately - I’m generally chomping at the bit to go go go. But lately, I honestly don’t feel like doing shit. I’ve been going back and forth between ‘listen to your mind and body’ and relax, and ‘get moving’ even though you feel like being still. I can’t remember who said it, but I did have someone tell me that I needed to hit the ground running in New...

Blog / 05.12.2018

If you caught my last post, you heard me talk about my pursuit to be more accepting of perfection in my life, which I ponder as the primary ingredient in experiencing joy. On the flip side of that same coin is incompatibility [noun] - the condition of two things being so different in nature as to be incapable of coexisting. The irony is that even though incompatible situations and incompatible relationships come with negative emotions for you and/or the people you care about, for some strange reason, we are often incapable - or more accurately: unwilling - of letting them go. Personally, when I inch towards an incompatible situation or person, to label it as such often feels like I'm giving up. And I don't like giving up. It's as if perhaps I should just try a little harder, or adjust my perspective, and then I can make this...

Blog / 03.12.2018

It's been somewhat surprising to me that as I've sat down over the last week to write publicly for the first time ever, the subject matter that seems to be at the front of my brain is around relationships - and specifically my relationship with Ashley. I was in the kitchen thinking about my post for the day and thought that perhaps I needed to write a post that's something in the vein of "My Relationship Isn't Perfect", which obviously I would have come up with a more creative title for :) I was thinking that for two posts in a row I was talking about Ashley and my relationship as if it was perfect. There were two rationales for the post - the first was that I didn't want someone to feel bad about the idea that they might not have the perfect relationship,...

Blog / 30.11.2018

[cont'd] It was 4365 days since our first date. Many things had changed and many things were different. First, and most importantly, I was sitting accross the table from a woman that I wanted to be with in the exact same way that I wanted to be with her on our first date - that desire had not increase, it had not decreased, it was litterally the exact same. 4365 days later we were sipping wine instead of drinking beer. And we were at one of the coolest resorts I've ever been to - The W in Punta de Mita, Mexico - instead of the somewhat dingy bar at PM in Nashville, TN. We were celebrating our 10 year wedding aniversary and there was another thing that was identical to our first date 4365 days prior - and that was the subject of our conversation. Over dinner...

Blog / 29.11.2018

I read a blog this morning about the importance of journaling - so here I am. I'm not sure how much I've written since we've moved to New York - maybe nothing. A wave of intensity just rushed over my body as I wrote that last line. It was almost as if the hair stood up on my back (not that I have much hair on my back). I'm not sure exactly what that physical response was, but I'm 90% sure that it's related to how much of a paradigm shift I've been in over the last few months. I'm trying to figure out if I go back and recount/reflect on it all, or if I start with today. Fuck it, let's go back to the beginning. It was Ashley and my first date - years ago at this point. We had hung out with friends...